liquids

been having a hard time keeping anything down all day today - am also feeling wiped out - possibly due to lack of calories. was pb-ing tea earlier. now trying to get some juice down - maybe have soup or yogurt for dinner...

a little worried b/c i haven't had this much restriction and pb-ing ever. hopefully food will start to go down...

well, there goes breakfast

yuck. well, i just pb'd the last of my breakfast. my band has been a lil tight lately so i prolly shoulda known better than to have a hard boiled egg and half a piece of toast for breakfast. i actually think it was okay until i had one bite too many. then i pb-d the extra. then i pb'd again. and now i just pb'd the last bit of it. guess eggs and toast don't go down too well.

partly i think once i start to pb, my gag reflex kicks in and most everything ends up coming out. i've been totally gross lately, i know. guess i'll stick to yoghurt for breakfast. sigh.

fill-up

i pretty much hit a plateau for the entire month of september. i skipped a fill appointment earlier in the month b/c my restriction felt okay but it seemed to loosen up as the month went along. in a bit of a panic due to a slight weight-gain, i scheduled for a fill last wednesday. why don't i do these things earlier?

actually, at first i was worried b/c my doc said he only put in a very small amount - i think about 2 cc's and i didn't feel the fill as much as i normally do right after. but since wednesday i seem to have tightened up a little and definitely have some good restriction going on. i was super-dehydrated on saturday morning from spending too much time in a hot tub on friday night and i ended up spitting up my morning water. i was a little freaked that i was having so much trouble with the water but it all settled down.

i had a couple pbs at restaurants this weekend...garggghhh...i think my problem is that when i eat with people i don't know so well, i feel like i have to eat what looks like a reasonable amount so my plate doesn't look full. i keep ordering normal entrees and then am only able to have a few bites before i should stop. but there's so much food on the plate that i feel like i look weird hardly eating anything. so then i eat past my full point and have to excuse myself to the bathroom to pb. gross, huh? sigh. i've definitely been eating less since last week tho and it's reflecting on the scale. hopefuly this downward trend will continue.