absent.

i feel like i've been absent from the lapband world for awhile now. after going on vacation it sorta feels like i've not yet returned to my "regular life". i've been outta town and outta the house for almost the whole month of september. sadly, the scale is reflecting this "extended vacation". i think i'm about 3 pounds down from where i was a month ago. that is kinda disappointing but makes sense b/c i've not exactly been a conscientious eater for about a month now.

and man, i've had some insane pb episodes from not eating carefully. the worst being a puking, in public, just outside wrigley field after a cubs game. holy hell. that was horrible - tho honestly, folks probably just figured i was drunk (like most folks around). i hadn't had a meat hotdog in years and that's what did it. i think i won't be returning to wrigley field or eating hotdogs for awhile, if ever.

but i'm back at home now and will hopefully be eating out a lot less. time to buckle down and start eating well again. also, probably time for a fill. i backed out of one a couple of weeks ago b/c i didn't feel like i needed one but i'm starting to feel a little loose again. should probably start working out too....

slow losing

well, i'm back from an extended vacation and managed to lose maybe a couple pounds while gone. mostly due to tons of walking and not being able to eat large portions of anything. i definitely did do some very bad eating on vacation, tho. jeebus, i discovered this dish called poutine (i was in canada) which is essentially fries, gravy and cheese curds. sounds gross, right? well it turns out to be one of the most delicious dishes ever. i had it several times - was only able to eat a few fries at most (fries seem to be a difficult food for me) and it was so, so good.

and then there's desserts, chocolate, chips, a bit of alcohol...it was a good eating trip. had a few pb's tho - including at least one public one (made it to the bathroom okay, thank god. i had gone up a few pounds from being under 250 but i weighed in (nervously) at 248 this morning. i wish i was lower but after all my bad eating this past week i'm really glad it's not higher.